Fragile SOUL

Yesterday I was asked to bathe a mixed breed dog; Golden and Spitz. I was told that the dog was going to die due of illness. I was stunned when they told me that... totally speechless when bathing it. It's eyesight is so dull.. spiritless.. emotionless.. oh my god... I wanted to cry out. How can you imagine that when you are doing something for the very last time for someone.. And it's indescribable how I feel when I know that the dog was going to end it's life. They said the dog was having kidney failure and refuse to eat nor drink. It just vomited whatever enter it's stomach. This is the time when I started to think. Esther, my grooming partner mention that might be the owner's fault for not taking good care of the dog. It is already 9 years old. It doesn't have a choice to die with illness or to die of old age.. But, the owner does have the choice how he wanted his dog to live and end it's life. The illness might be accumulate during it's lifetime... or just suddenly get sick....

so skinny.. i could even grab it's back bone.. and feel it's pelvic bone.. omg.

it's eyes... so dull.. very dull

waiting...

Same goes to human. I just turn 21 this year. Getting into working society, I realize that lots of friends among me are not taking care of themselves. There are smokers, drinkers.. and having eating disorder; obesity. You all have a choice on how to live your life. Whether in term of health.. mentally too. Lately I'm so annoyed by a faggot who likes to fake out, boast and that's really a FAGGOT. Come on, you want to live your life in your own faking fairytale land? Keep boasting and telling lies for your whole life? I don't understand why there is such people who want to live their life in LIES, FALSENESS, STUPIDITY,.. whatever. Faggot eats MAGGOT. Fark off..